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Sunday, 29 January 2006

It's been a long time since October....

Hello again;

I've changed my photo from that of me with my mother on her 80th (taken March 2005). This photo was taken by my son, Jeremy, who has shared his web site with you. Since I'm his mom, I shall share it again: www.jeremyveverka.com. If you're like me, you're anxious to see more photos published to his web site. Did I mention I think he's terrific. Of course, when he reads this, he will be embarrassed and say something to me like "Mish, you're being gay."

My sons started calling me Mish when they were very young and their dad has enjoyed the sweet nickname of Dish. Corny, perhaps, but I love it. When the boys were in their teens, sometimes their friends would refer to me as Mish, which totally delighted me.

Jeremy has been staying with me here in Florida since September and is doing wonderful things with his photography. I see "photo journalist" on the horizon. His brother is completing a Masters and then is interested in a special program which provides intensive study of Mandarin.

I'm a fortunate mom in that both my children are extremely interesting people and, perhaps more importantly, interested in expanding their experience of peoples, cultures, and the world beyond that which is limited by the driving distance from one town to the next. Whether it be through books, conversations, contemplation and travel their experience broadens and they are engaged in life and the living of it. I'm so very happy for that and it's of their own making.

I send special greetings to those of you who have commmented upon my first entry and a special hug to "divinity487". I am so impressed with the thoughtfulness and insight shared by a couple of you especially: "thedesireof themothforthe star" and "sixpennyworth". "...Desire..." - what an incredible writer of prose. You're clearly a sensitive person for whom touching people is essential for you. Thank you for your words and feelings.

My life is fairly mundane, yet complex. But, complexity can be wonderful if you have the guts for it and can learn from it and put it to good use. The cliche of "life is a journey" is something that resonates for me. It's the journey that one makes, not the destination, that defines a person. So, for now, here's to good journeys.

Mish

Monday, 10 October 2005

A few months ago, my adult sons visited me from the Northeast. Moms have a hard time stepping back and allowing their sons to grow and develop without feeling an almost physical sense of losing an appendage or their sense of personal identify. One has to reinvent oneself. So, with a bit of a shove from them last December, I've been paying more attention to me and starting to recognize that I can actually be someone I'd like to know.

I work at a school district in administration - I'm a glorified secretary and somewhat embarrassed to say so. To me, it means that I didn't do well enough in highschool to attend a good college and blew it at the second rate "college" I did attend for barely 1 year - I was a flop. So, I started working and being on my own at 19, earning the minimum wage and finally at 58 have broken the $30K a year salary mark. So, my much younger friends, education certainly could have given me more alternatives. Although I'm not unhappy making others look good - there's some pride in that - typical woman - it would be nice to command an excellent salary and the respect that goes with the job that might account for it.

One day I'd like to be considered by some as "that neat old lady". Well, I'd especially like to earn that respect by my sons. So, I've lots of inner molding to do and will let you know how I progress.

Good evening for now.